That’s the title of an email I got from a client this week after her session. It was her fifth session with me and we were really getting to some old, repeating patterns. You know, the kind of stuff that really feels like crap.[By the way, this is the reason I only work with people in multiple sessions. The way I picture it is that we skim off whatever has come up. This makes space for the next load to surface. Clients see the best results when they release multiple times. And I’m dedicated to giving the best results I can.]
One thing that often comes up for my clients is their stuff related to money.
You’ve probably heard people say that when you’re an entrepreneur, there’s no limit to the money you can make.
That can be freeing – and really daunting. How are the business and the money going to happen? How are you not going to have good and bad months? It’s true that there’s no ceiling to how much money you can make, but there’s no floor, either. No limit to how little you can make.
The feelings that accompany these thoughts are fear, anxiety, even terror.
And when you get stuck in these thoughts and feelings, you start grasping for something that feels sure and safe. Or you sit frozen. Or you spend your time and energy on little stuff that doesn’t make a real difference in your business. You can’t even take the steps that you know will help you build a solid and successful business.
How are you going to get anywhere in that space? How can you have a miracle happen? How can you be magnetic to your ideal clients? To your creative genius? To yourself?
In my client’s words, “You’re covered in crap and it stinks and pushes everybody and everything away.”
The crap hides your light. It taints everything you do.
And yet it feels safe and familiar.
And it hides you, which feels like protection.
It also shuts down the possibility of something wonderful coming in that you can’t even imagine.
Your crap closes the door to miracles and magic.
So where does the crap come from?
A lot of it comes from our past. I’ve heard many, many stories of parents who were emotionally cut-off or punitive. Childhoods where there was always a sense of lack – lack of money, lack of time, lack of love.
I’ve heard of so many life experiences that left the person feeling shaken, bereft, abandoned, unsafe, less than.
We each have our stories. Our stories that feel like our cages. They keep us trapped in the past. Trapped in the same old patterns.
We hate them. We fight against them. We blame them.
And we cling to them.
Because they feel safe. They tell us who we are. And we’re scared to find out who we are without them.
We’re scared we aren’t good enough.
And we’re terrified to find out we’re right about that.
And we feel like we’re the only ones who feel and think this way.
Well, I can tell you with absolute certainty that you ARE good enough.
In fact, you’re amazing. You are fantastic!!
I’ve worked with people from all walks of life who’ve had a staggering array of experiences. The one thing they all have in common is the beauty and magnitude of who they are underneath the crap.
And that’s true for you, too.
I know it. 100%.
It’s okay if you don’t believe me. I’ve had times where I haven’t believed it about myself. We all do.
But our doubts don’t change its truth.
You’re unique – wonderfully, gorgeously unique. There never has been and never will be another you.
You have something special to share. Something that only you can share. Even if a thousand other people offer the same service you do, only you can do it the way you do. And certain people will resonate with you and want to work with you because of who you are.
My telling you that might feel good. I hope it does. But what really makes the difference is when you experience it for yourself.
When you come face-to-face with you, free from all the crap, shining your light and you love what you see and who you already are.
I’m not talking about a mental exercise here, where you determine to see yourself this way. I’m not talking about adding a layer of “belief” to cover up the crap that’s there.
I’m talking about an experience of this. I’m talking about letting go of the crap so that what’s left is YOU.
Another client recently told me at the end of a session, “I feel like every one of my cells has been wrung out. Like I’ve been scrubbed from the inside out.”
So take a minute now and imagine being scrubbed from the inside out. What would you wash away? What are you ready to let go of?
Great article reinforcing what I am learning. Thank you for your insights and help!
I’m so glad you found it helpful, Melissa. Thanks for your comment.